After 14+yrs. With severe Head Injury. Something new all the time.

I worked for Cargill in Guntersville Al. I operated a chemical plant. The nite my life got sideways was when I went to soybean barge to check on guy inside barge. There was a ladder going inside the barge at 4 in the morning I took one step on ladder the person had a push broom under ladder to prop it up to clean soybeans out from under ladder. That is the last thing I remember until I got to hospital. When I fell the guy inside the barge didn’t see me I Bleed out my TEAR DUCTS, ears,nose,mouth,Broke all ribs, puncherd lung, Broken collar bone, suffered Basicular skull fracture, Damage to Frontal lobe. From a 22ft fall my brain bounced ok off skull brused front to back. I was 39yrs. Old and loved my job. And anyone who has been through head injury we would all pick job over the largest change in my life TBI. I have been dealing with my new ones life over 14 years. After the accident I was a mess speech was all over the place. Balance was awful, I would be talking to family words would come out not related to any thing we were talking about. Cluster migraines, VIRTAGO, memory loss short term.cognituve problems, Depression, Anxiety iff the chart. Problem solving not good. After 32yrs of marriage the accident has really hurt our relationship. My wife has been there since day one but she doesn’t get it and I don’t get it. I don’t know why I do the things I do. Nothing really bad. I give my work car away when they said I would never get to work anywhere. And didn’t talk to my wife about giving the car away. I’m way too giving and don’t think about what I done until after I already done something stupid. People close to me have told me that I’m not the same person I was before Head Injury. I can’t see it but my actions prove it. My neurologist told me an my wife not long after fall that I would be one of two: a pain or really easy.